Reincarnation

I feel I must describe my pathway to doing Past Life Regressions and the connection it has to my singing, specifically to Opera. I experienced my first past life regression as a client about 14 years ago, and apart from seeing a life in England in 1754 as a woman who was part of the aristocracy named Clarissa, I also briefly experienced a life at the turn of the century as an opera singer. I knew little of her life from the past life regression, that she travelled by coach through the European countryside, sang often in provincial towns, and that her voice was clear in the upper regions. She was a stern and driven woman, slightly larger than myself with thick , long dark hair. She gave birth to a child with a man standing next to her (her husband?). Her life was successful and full, but the name did not appear - they were glimpses into a life. A few weeks passed and I had a dream - an old lady was waiting for me on the side of the road "You are finally here" and I had to walk up a steep incline to her house. Again, feelings of the person, no name, but clearer feelings. I knew she was born around 1850-1860, that she died around 1940, was about 40 years of age at the turn of the century, was French, had a clear voice in the upper registers and the her surname started with "C". My research now started and I poured through lists of old Opera singers. The name Emma Calvé stood out - the feelings fitted. So I assumed this was the person and for a long time accepted her as a kind of guardian angel. I found a CD recording of her voice - there were some unnerving similarities in the colour and intensity of the voice, could I perhaps be her reincarnation? Other points - my aversion of the opera Carmen, a tendency to sit between Mezzo and Soprano repetoires and a general not wanting to learn French, as well as being drawn towards castles. A decade passed and I did little research. I moved to Europe, had travelled to India and been involved in Tibetan buddhism and had always had a general interest in the supernatural. I decided then to learn to do past life regressions as I had found my own had stayed with me over the years. Again, I saw a life as a female Opera singer at the turn of the century - success on stage, worn out floor boards, again the long flowing dark wavy hair, then near the side of a castle, a lawn, the year 1894 and a man visiting dressed as a cavalier, children playing. Was I on the lawn at Cabrieres and was the man Jules Bois, who I later discovered was her lover? In my past life regression, I had the feeling of her marrying the wrong man and deep sorrow and guilt feelings over the death of a child. My research since then has been diverse - did she have a daughter who died in a fire? She travelled with Swami Vivekenanda through India, with Jules Bois on board, but I find no concisive evidence. What has been interesting for me though, and sometimes hard to accept, is her incredible fame at the turn of the century and now her almost obscurity, my own ordinariness now in my life - I am happily married and have children but my singing has been on hold. Now as a Past life Practitioner, I feel I can see the connection - when you "see" the other life and the problems, pains and happiness experienced you can appreciate your own achievements in this life in another light. I should hope with her belief in reincarnation and spirituality, that it has made it now possible for me in this life to have this experience.